So, this is what I don't understand. You say that you really need a friend, but you never seem to embrace the people that reach out to you. People who you don't know you all that well, but met you a while ago and just want to make sure you're ok. I don't mean to "hate" on you, I just want to know why.
There are very few people I’m comfortable “embracing”, and there aren’t many people who are trying to “reach out” to me right now.